A Stroll Down Jacey Lane

The past couple of weeks I found that I had been having a difficult time, kind of beating myself up; feeling full of regrets and "would have's" and "could have's". Thinking back on the last 3 roller coaster years of my life and thinking of all of the trials I have been put through. Hearing people talk about it all and bring it up to me, I found myself getting so frustrated. I found myself putting the blame on me. Thinking :  "If I would have chosen a different path, I could have avoided all of this pain." "If I would've chosen differently, maybe I would have ended up with the right person from the start." "If I would have left sooner, I would not have gotten hurt." "If I would have stood up for myself sooner, I could have avoided the mistreatment." "If I would have, then I could have..." All of these thoughts and more just circling my mind over and over; wishing I could go back in tim

  Be still, my soul: The Lord is on thy side; With patience bear thy cross of grief or pain. Leave to thy God to order and provide; In ev'ry change he faithful will remain. Be still, my soul: Thy best, thy heav'nly Friend Thru thorny ways leads to a joyful end. Be still, my soul: Thy God doth undertake To guide the future as he has the past. Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake; All now mysterious shall be bright at last. Be still, my soul: The waves and winds still know His voice who ruled them while he dwelt below. Be still, my soul: The hour is hast'ning on When we shall be forever with the Lord, When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone, Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored. Be still, my soul: When change and tears are past, All safe and blessed we shall meet at last. I'm pretty sure that this hymn has been the most played song on my phone the past few weeks. The words have such deep meaning to me an

I'm sure many of you have heard of my latest happenings in life. And sometimes I find that writing about it is a little helpful to explain it all.  Many of you have continued to ask me how I feel now, and what happened and if I'm okay.. So, I share this experience not to get your pity, or sorrow for me, but because hopefully this can help you all come to understand my answer, and so that you can come to feel as much peace and comfort as I do. 2 Saturdays ago, I was writing addresses on wedding invitations and talking to my fiance, getting ready to mail out the first bunch. We were getting married in 2 weeks. And then in less than 6 hours, my entire life felt as though it had exploded. Being happily engaged and in love with someone that you were planning on saying "I do forever" to, you would never expect that in those 6 hours, you would no longer be needing to send out those wedding invitations.  We were supposed to go to dinner with his parents that eve

Syd and I didn't have class so we decided to hit up the Alpine Loop while it was still warm and all of the colors were out in full force!